At this moment, Monarch, Ben's home for the last 4 years, truly seems like heaven to me. And being here, watching Ben lope around his cottage in confident, comfortable happiness, surrounded by his surrogate - and wonderful - Ohio family, on our last visit (next time we are here it will be to bring him back to Illinois), feels like a living hell. No words.

Ben at the sink in his kitchen with Karen (back) and three of his staff as we wrapped up our final "normal" visit today. Cornisha, Ben's adoring (and adored) Monarch mom, is on the left, July 12, 2015.